bdsm-fiction Chapter 74 Self-reflection and Repentance: A Secret Resolve to Resolve the Master's Heart
Chapter 74 Self-reflection and Repentance: A Secret Resolve to Resolve the Master's Heart
Chapter 74 Self-reflection and Repentance: A Secret Resolve to Resolve the Master's Heart
I. Stunned by his profound insights, I stood frozen in place.
As Chen Shanhe finished speaking, his profound discourse on the integration of military strategy and medicine fell into complete silence in the hall.
Zhou Deshan and Xu Jingming remained standing there, frozen in place, motionless for a long time.
The profound medical wisdom echoed repeatedly in their minds, their spirits trembling and their bodies immersing in a tremendous shock, unable to recover for a long time.
The two men were dazed and confused, their minds replaying scenes from their years of medical practice. Comparing these scenes with Chen Shanhe's profound and insightful medical philosophy, they were overwhelmed with mixed feelings and a multitude of thoughts tangled within them.
Seeing the two looking so dejected, Su Wanjing understood. She gently took a few steps back, quietly moving away from the center of the hall, so as not to disturb them as they tried to calm themselves down.
Chen Shanhe stood calmly to the side, neither urging nor speaking, allowing the two to digest this timeless truth that overturned their lifelong understanding.
After a long while, the two slowly exhaled a deep breath, their stiff bodies slightly relaxed, but their eyes were still full of shock and confusion, unable to fully recover from the profound discussion they had just heard.
The two men glanced at each other's pale and dazed faces, both knowing that today's lecture had completely rewritten their lifelong commitment to practicing medicine.
Poems as proof:
A profound statement that resonated deeply.
The two elders were so stunned that they forgot right and wrong.
Half a lifetime of medical dreams, all shattered in terror.
Standing silently, unable to return home.
Second, avoid private conversations and examine yourself.
The two slowly calmed their chaotic thoughts, looked at each other, and instantly understood each other, nodding silently.
They then turned around and slowly walked out of the hall, deliberately avoiding Chen Shanhe and Su Wanjing, who were sitting quietly inside.
The two walked side by side to a quiet, secluded corner of the courtyard corridor. The surroundings were peaceful and deserted, far from the sight of others, allowing them to calm down, have an honest conversation, and express the true thoughts buried deep in their hearts.
Zhou Deshan's chest heaved as he exhaled a long, heavy sigh. The composure of a renowned doctor was gone from his face, replaced by exhaustion and dejection.
His brows furrowed tightly as he spoke first, his voice low and hoarse, each word carrying a heavy weight and deep regret.
"Brother Xu, after hearing the amazing medical theories of the Little Divine Doctor of Mountains and Rivers today, I have finally come to my senses."
"We have spent our whole lives studying medicine and practicing medicine with ancient prescriptions, only to find that we have wasted our time and gone down the wrong path."
Xu Jingming nodded heavily upon hearing this, his brows and eyes filled with an unyielding bitterness and deep shame, his face flushing red and then turning pale.
He lowered his eyelids, spoke softly and slowly in agreement, his words full of self-mockery and bitterness.
"Yes, Brother Zhou, we have been practicing medicine for forty or fifty years and are renowned doctors in the provincial capital's medical community. We are respected and respected by people all year round."
"But in the end, we are just stuck in our ways, clinging to the old ways and making no progress. We have never truly grasped the fundamental principles of practicing medicine."
Finally, I let go of all pretense and began a serious and profound self-reflection, facing my inner remorse and guilt.
You speak, I speak, slowly recounting the thoughts and feelings that have been building up in my heart for decades.
He meticulously recounted and analyzed all the narrow-minded shortcomings, biases, mistakes, and rigid habits he had exhibited in his years of medical practice, facing the past with candor and no longer concealing or hiding anything.
Poems as proof:
Avoiding others to tell one's true feelings,
Sitting quietly in front of the corridor, I regret my past.
Having seen through half a lifetime of fleeting glory,
Shed the empty fame and examine yourself.
III. Reflecting on the Past and Feeling Guilty
Zhou Deshan frowned deeply, his face was gloomy and solemn, and layers of guilt welled up in his heart, making his chest feel heavy.
As he recalled his decades-long journey of practicing medicine, scenes from the past flooded his mind, filling him with self-reproach and unease, and his tone became increasingly low and heavy.
"Throughout our lives, we have clung to the old and outdated methods passed down through generations, resulting in a narrow and closed-minded perspective, and a rigid and inflexible approach to medicine."
"They never let go of their prejudices and accept the new medical principles that truly align with the origins of heaven and earth, and they dare not make any changes to the prescriptions of their ancestors."
"When they see patients and prescribe medicine on a daily basis, they just rigidly follow the ancient books and prescriptions, and they do it in a monotonous and unchanging way."
"They never adapt to changes in a person's constitution or symptoms, and they don't understand how to differentiate syndromes layer by layer or trace the root cause, so they can't find the real lesion."
Upon hearing these words, Xu Jingming's cheeks flushed, and a burning sense of shame instantly overwhelmed him, making him feel utterly ashamed.
He looked up and sighed repeatedly, his heart filled with regret and embarrassment, and slowly opened his mouth to express the mistakes in his heart.
"We rely on our years of experience and reputation as doctors, and we are arrogant and haughty, with a look of disdain and conceit in our eyes."
"I have always looked down on barefoot doctors who come from the countryside and mountains. I always felt that those who come from the countryside have shallow medical skills and are not worthy of being called doctors."
"Whenever I see patients, I rely solely on my shallow experience accumulated over the years to arbitrarily diagnose illnesses, determine whether a patient is cured, and hastily decide the severity and nature of the disease."
The more they talked, the more intense their guilt became, and the more they recalled their past experiences, the more uneasy they felt.
Over the years of practicing medicine, I have made many mistakes in diagnosing patients' true conditions because of my inaccurate diagnosis and biased understanding of the properties of medicines.
Countless times, due to rigid thinking and adherence to outdated prescriptions, we have missed the best opportunity for patients to receive treatment and recuperation.
Furthermore, due to his own stubbornness and shallowness, he indirectly delayed the recovery of countless people and even extinguished the last remaining chance of life for many critically ill patients.
The two of them carefully recalled one mistake after another in the past, their faces flushed with shame and guilt, their hearts churning with remorse and regret that lingered for a long time.
Only now did they finally realize that such rigid medical practice, lack of flexibility and understanding, and mere years of experience and external qualifications did not make them qualified and compassionate doctors.
Poems as proof:
Rigidly following prescriptions can harm patients.
They are arrogant and have a narrow perspective.
Half a lifetime of wrong turns are hard to turn back.
I am filled with shame and regret for my past actions.
Fourth, set aside pride to calm the teacher's mind.
In the quiet courtyard, Zhou Deshan and Xu Jingming stood side by side in silence, neither of them speaking for a long time.
The regret, self-blame, and realization that surged in my heart just now have gradually settled down and taken root firmly in my heart.
The two men couldn't help but turn back to look at the direction of the hall. Thinking of Chen Shanhe, who was young but had a heart full of medical knowledge and had already grasped the supreme truth that medicine and military affairs were of the same origin, their old faces instantly turned red. They felt ashamed and filled with unspeakable shame and guilt.
A young man from a rural town, whose vision was never limited by his family background, devoted himself to enlightenment and cultivation, and saw through the true essence of traditional Chinese medicine at a young age.
In contrast, these two men, who had dedicated half their lives to the medical field in the provincial capital and were respected and admired for most of their lives as renowned veteran doctors, were stuck in their ways and lost half their lives. They clung to rigid old methods and put the cart before the horse, never managing to grasp the core foundation of medicine.
The difference between the two was stark and obvious, leaving neither of them with a trace of resentment or arrogance.
Having experienced this profound awakening today, the two have completely let go of the reputation and qualifications they had painstakingly accumulated through half a lifetime of medical practice, let go of the face and physique they had upheld for many years, and also shed the airs of famous doctors who had always been high and mighty and sought after.
All the arrogance and condescension of the past have vanished, leaving only a heart full of respect and humility.
The two slowly raised their heads, and in the instant their eyes met, without needing to exchange words, the exact same thought arose in their hearts at the same time.
Each of them secretly resolved in their hearts to find a safe and solemn time to completely let go of all worldly pretenses and long-standing pride.
With sincere heart and upright intention, I bow my head and solemnly kneel to acknowledge Chen Shanhe as my teacher.
From now on, I am willing to put aside all my arrogance, immerse myself in studying day and night, and focus on learning the true and orthodox principles of traditional Chinese medicine.
I will make up for all the mistakes I made in my life as a doctor, make up for the medical foundation that I have lacked all my life, and spend the rest of my life practicing medicine in peace and with a down-to-earth attitude, so as not to betray the benevolence of a doctor.
Poems as proof:
Put aside vanity and worldly concerns.
He suddenly realized his mistake.
Secretly making his initial wish to become an apprentice,
He devoted himself to understanding the Tao and making up for his remaining years.