Girls' Frontline: My Apocalypse with Dolls

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Adeline muttered something under her breath, but Lovan just shook his head.

"of course not."

......

"Some people are pathetic. Their circumstances only allow them to have tattered clothes, leftover bread, and their last shred of self-respect. Although these things are worthless, they are their only precious possessions, and they are afraid that someone will take them away. When you get along with them, you will find that in order to survive, you must protect your things from being taken away. In order to prevent them from being taken away, you must stand up and fight. The more ruthless and cold-blooded you are, the more respect you will gain from others."

"This is a form of revenge, a type of revenge that belongs to this kind of people."

......

Adeline looked up: "What are you trying to say?"

Luo Fan did not answer, his haggard and deep eyes gazing into the boundless darkness, as if stirring up some unpleasant thoughts.

"The problem is that the failed man, the seeker of truth, couldn't even be a good avenger."

"As I just said, revenge is a means of survival."

"...but one principle must be followed."

"Will revenge also be a matter of principle?"

Adeline asked, puzzled.

"Ah."

The man nodded slightly.

"The target of revenge must be someone else."

"No matter what the reason for revenge is, whether it's hypocrisy, guilt, or anger, it doesn't matter. As long as the target of revenge is still there, I can still live."

"But the seeker of the Way has neither the courage to shirk responsibility and live a life of ignominy, nor the guts to abandon his mission by ending his own life. There are too many people around him, too many people who believe in him and follow him. No matter what, he cannot let go. He has too much karmic burden. Neither his own death nor revenge can solve the root problem."

"Therefore, he saw himself as the object of revenge."

"But this is not the behavior of someone who wants to live. A seeker of the Way who cannot choose between life and death is thus in a state of being unable to live and unable to die..."

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"The end result is that we'll be swallowed up..."

"The seeker of the Way cannot overcome his own troubles, goes astray in his practice, and eventually perishes, leaving these troubles to his descendants. He is the tool by which he imposes his unfulfilled dreams and troubles on his descendants and friends."

......

"Why did you tell me this story? I still don't understand what you're trying to tell me."

Adeline shook her head, her confusion growing more pronounced.

But Luo Fan smiled inexplicably again: "It's nothing, just take it as me telling a story."

With that, the man locked his phone, put it in his pocket, and then continued to gaze into the distance, doing nothing.

Actually, that story wasn't something Luo Fan came up with on a whim; it was a message Shi Na sent before they entered the quarantine zone and were interfered with by the signal.

......

While Luo Fan was still wondering how Shi Na could find his social media account, Shi Na had already sent him the story.

Luo Fan: "How did you find this account?"

Shina: "Hey, never mind that, take a look at what I posted above first."

Luo Fan: "I saw it, and then what?"

Shina: "I heard this from a friend I met at a group dinner. She's a bit of a talent, able to know information that others don't. Apparently, she even gave advice to some big families and gangs before, but she's retired from those activities now. I was bored and mentioned you to her, so I asked her to take a look, and that's how I got this story. I don't understand what she's trying to say. If you have any questions, I'll take you to meet her next time you're free at the next dinner. Bye-bye!"

"..."

......

To this day, Luo Fan still doesn't understand what the story of this seeker of truth really means.

He saw some reflections of himself, but he didn't think he would be troubled by so-called troubles. His purpose was clear. He always knew what he wanted to do and what he should do. How could he go astray because of minor troubles?

He is fundamentally different from the Seekers of the Way. The Seekers of the Way seem to be saviors in the story, but Luo Fan is not. He is just a hacker, and he has not achieved the goal of saving the world.

He doesn't think he's the kind of person who would spread anxiety. He's always been the one helping girls with their mental health issues, so how could he possibly be the one to add to their worries?

So, just treat it as a funny story and enjoy it for the sake of laughter.

......

"Let's go, Adeline, it's getting late, we should go back and rest. If we don't rest now, we might be affected tomorrow."

It was almost time, so Luo Fan got up from the ground, dusted himself off, and helped Adeline up.

Adeline didn't complain that the time was too short. She stood up with Lovan and stood in front of him, just looking at him.

He reached out again and touched Adeline's fair face.

"In short, Adeline, you need to understand that you should do what you want to do, be yourself, and not be bound by the past or the opinions of others. If you need anything, come to me. Whatever you want to do, I will help you until you can get out of your troubles."

Adeline, on the other hand, probably has far more obvious troubles than I do...

They followed him without complaint, and he should give them everything he has in return.

"I...I'll give it a try..."

"Okay, let's try. If you fall, I'll lie down underneath you and cushion your fall. Just remember not to fall too hard, hahaha..."

Perhaps the problem isn't completely solved, but at least it's made Adeline less distressed, isn't it?

He wouldn't dare say he had done everything perfectly for them, but he certainly had, as he always had.

......

They didn't remember how long this process took; the still-dawnless night couldn't tell them anything. Judging from the girls' eyes, however, the time seemed to be quite long.

"Where did you go? It took twenty-five minutes longer than expected."

The first thing he heard upon entering was Mondragon's extremely standard official tone, but Lovan didn't find it annoying. On the contrary, he was glad that the girls were still concerned about his situation.

"I went out for a chat, nothing serious. I'm tired, so I'll go and rest. It's already past four in the morning."

"I'm not sleepy yet, you should go and rest first. I'll keep watch to prevent anyone here from having bad intentions."

With that said, Mondragon picked up an office chair, slung his weapon over his shoulder, and prepared to enter the corridor.

"Well... oh well..."

Luo Fan knew he couldn't persuade her and might even face a barrage of righteous criticism.

Mondragon's concerns were not unfounded. After all, this was someone else's territory, and it was always good to be more cautious. Things could easily go wrong if things dragged on, but Mondragon might have to work harder.

Back in front of the two familiar office chairs, Alpha was still sound asleep, leaning against a cotton coat. Luo Fan slowly pulled the coat out and sat back down. It just so happened that the coat could also be used as a blanket.

Thankfully, she wasn't woken up in that short time...

but.....

Luo Fan turned around: "Adeline, want to come along?"

"Will Miss Alpha be unhappy...?"

"It's nothing, just a nap. You're not particularly big, and this office chair is just big enough for you to sit in."

"OK then."

Anyway, it doesn't conflict with my own ideas, as long as the commander doesn't object...

Luo Fan moved back a few centimeters to make room for Adeline, who then found a good angle and sat down.

"crunch"

The extremely crisp sound was particularly noticeable in the quiet room...

......

"Commander, won't something bad happen if this continues?"

Although Adeline sat down, her legs were still exerting a little force to control her center of gravity.

As a result, Lovan kicked Adeline's legs up, forcing her to put all her weight on the chair.

Another creak...

"Who cares? Just rest properly. Who sleeps in a half-squatting position?!"

Actually, Luo Fan also felt it was risky; if the chair suddenly broke while he was sleeping, that would be a huge disaster.

The girls looked at the two men, who seemed like children fighting over seats, with eyes full of helplessness and doubt.

Putting aside why the commander would let Adeline sit on him, is it really okay to keep it like this all night?

Indeed, Adeline is more suitable than them in this respect, after all, she is Nieto, not a complete humanoid, and is definitely lighter than them.

The disadvantage of humanoid characters not being able to lose weight becomes apparent...

P.S.: Did the number of votes increase when I asked for them?

381 Thoughts

It has been three days since Luo Fan left.

He was almost completely out of contact, as if he had vanished into thin air. After that one greeting, he embarked on a journey, not because he didn't want to return, but as fate would have it, too many factors led to their separation. This time, however, all he took with him was a job.

Without Luo Fan around, Ying unusually experienced insomnia, even though she had always slept soundly and never had any sleep-related problems before...

She doesn't have the habit of taking sleeping pills, believing that using such drugs would lead to dependence and damage to the nervous system. However, the torment of not being able to close her eyes and the pain of longing constantly torment her. Even when she forces herself to close her eyes and empty her mind, his outline becomes clearer in the darkness, as if he will appear as a living person in front of her at any moment.

This time, Yingque truly experienced firsthand what it felt like to be apart for three autumns in a single day. Although there was no physical itch, it made him restless and unable to eat or sleep.

She had become completely dependent on him...

The successful reunion also brought worries, namely the fear that the other person would leave her again. She wasn't strong enough; the fragile girl was just a mortal, and she wasn't ready to accept all of this.

Compared to Luo Fan, the girl was slightly smaller. With one less person, she could easily stretch out her arms and enjoy the warm bed all by herself, but she didn't need it and didn't like that feeling.

It's better when he's by my side; the tender embrace of a lover is the best soothing balm...

After thinking it over, I realized there was no point in wrapping myself up in the blanket, so I simply put on my coat and got up to see if there was anything outside that could distract me.

"I think it's not that early anymore..."

The tidy door opened a crack, and a head peeked out like a field mouse emerging from its hole, curiously looking around at the familiar surroundings.

The wall clock told her it was two in the morning, and the living room was empty except for a small lamp.

Nobody's here, that's good...

The slippers were made of a material that could perfectly conceal her footsteps, and Yingque tiptoed downstairs.

"Drink a little so you can sleep better, it'll be fine..."

Luo Fan had prepared various fruit wines in advance behind the bar. She had watched them go by, and although she couldn't recognize the types or brands of the wines, she could at least identify the fruits, juices, and various fruit gummies mixed together. Although she didn't know how they tasted, they looked very appealing, the kind of wine a girl like her would like.

"Hey kid, you can treat it like juice, then take a big gulp, it's really refreshing!"

That's what Luo Fan said at the time. Ying Que didn't drink on the spot. She doesn't like drinking alcohol. But she was still interested, at least when it came to alcohol with fruit and gummy candy.

Turn on the tap, and what appears in the glass is not only the bright red liquid, but also gummy candies that have not yet completely dissolved and still retain their shape.

"They call this way of drinking 'showing off'..."

......

After saying that, Yingque downed the entire mug of wine in one gulp.

"Hiccup~"

But one thing she didn't know was that the base spirit of this fruit wine was almost entirely made with large amounts of vodka, and the sugar content was off the charts...

"What, you can't see clearly after just one cup...? Didn't he say it was juice...?"

For a seasoned drinker, this was indeed an excellent glass of juice, but for someone like Yingque, who had a low alcohol tolerance, one glass would be enough to knock her unconscious, yet she still drank it all in one go.

"On a bright side... hiccup! At least I'm almost asleep."

Ying Que suddenly grinned foolishly and lay down on the bar counter. The air conditioning was on and the room wasn't cold, but it still couldn't compare to the warmth of her own bed.

"Luo Fan...when are you coming back...hiccup! Uh...hiccup! I want to...go back to China with you, and then...hiccup, get married...!"

It seems the hallucinations are having a significant effect; this is no longer just unconsciousness, but more like damage to the nervous system...

Fueled by alcohol, the girl's thoughts slowly began to surface...