Am I being simulated by their love affair?

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Jun Matsue suddenly had a strange feeling that he was a demon tempting the purest nun to fall.

"The secret to happiness is freedom, and the secret to freedom is courage."

"Perhaps the significance of meeting my senior is to tell you this."

You have the right to pursue your own happiness.

On this day, Yamami Maki learned of this brilliant secret.

Chapter 390 Problems are like a tangled ball of yarn, with more than one loose end.

However, even after leaving the empty classroom, Yamami Maki's face still carried an indelible look of worry.

"But no matter what... I still lied to Yuka."

Jun Matsue stood at the edge of the corridor, closed the window that someone had opened, and turned around.

What exactly is deception?

"You just didn't tell Tomatsu about our relationship. Once you chose me, it was inevitable that you would hurt her."

"The senior student just hasn't found the option that causes the least harm."

The girl stopped in front of the ice cream machine. On a windy and rainy day, this shiny machine was not popular with everyone.

"But it's definitely not right to get closer to Matsueda while acting like nothing's wrong with Yuuka..."

"If it's wrong, it's wrong." Jun Matsueda smiled and walked over to the girl to buy her an ice cream.

Yamami Maki watched in surprise as he inserted a coin into the machine. "Matsueda-kun, isn't it a bit inappropriate to eat ice cream in this weather?"

"I like it."

The boy unwrapped the ice cream, took a bite, and felt the icy coldness seep into his teeth. Objectively speaking, it wasn't very pleasant.

"It's impossible for people to only do the right thing. Eating ice cream in this kind of weather may indeed be harmful to your health, but I like it."

"My senior also did something wrong, maybe out of greed or other reasons, just like I'm eating ice cream now, it's really no different."

"As long as you are mentally prepared to bear the consequences before making a choice, it will be fine."

Jun Matsueda touched his stomach. "I might have a stomachache during class later, and when Tomatsu finds out about you, your friendship will be in crisis. We'll all have to pay the price."

"However, it seems that the senior student back then probably didn't expect that such a price would be so hard for her to accept."

Ultimately, their conversation returned to accepting reality.

For Jun Matsue, this might not be a big deal; he had even been betrayed by Tomatsu Yuka and Mochizuki Haruka long ago. However, for Maki Yami, the fact that a carefully cultivated friendship had been broken because of her own actions was truly unsettling.

"...I want Yuka's forgiveness." The girl said, revealing her greedy desire.

"It seems a bit difficult right now, but I will support my senior." The boy took another bite of his ice cream.

Yamami Maki finally smiled. "Thank you, Matsueda-kun. I feel much better now."

"Don't say thank you, Pine Branch, from now on." The boy said seriously, "It reminds me of when I wasn't familiar with my senior at all."

"I'm sorry." The girl's shoulders twitched, perhaps wanting to give him a hug, but she didn't, perhaps afraid of being witnessed by her junior again.

Jun Matsue glanced at her pale face. "So remember to get some rest when you get home today, or I'll worry."

Yamami Maki nodded obediently, the boy's perfectly timed concern making her heart, already damp with rain, feel even warmer.

Perhaps this concern was also due to the fact that it was obtained in exchange for her friendship.

The more you give, the more you care; this applies to all relationships in the world.

After Matsueda Jun comforted his senior for a few more minutes, the two parted ways at the stairwell. He returned to his classroom alone, and as soon as he entered, he could feel Tomatsu Yuka's gaze upon him.

As soon as I sat down, the girl handed me a note: "Matsueda-kun went to see Senpai again, didn't he?"

The boy didn't reply and simply stuffed the sticky note into the drawer. Tomatsu Yuka then persistently handed him a second one.

"Did he go to comfort her? I'm so envious..."

The girl didn't write any more, but Jun Matsue seemed to see the deep sorrow behind the ellipses.

However, he had no choice. Appeasing one side would inevitably hurt the other. Since he had already made his choice, he could not regret it.

When Jun Matsueda was advising the girl, he was perhaps also trying to convince himself.

He opened his notebook and copied down the text he had learned in today's Chinese language class.

"There are three elements to happiness: stupidity, selfishness, and physical health."

Comforting Yamami Maki is not the end, but the beginning. The broken friendship is left for the senior to deal with first. If Matsueda Jun wants to add his own color to the girl's life, he still has to change her mind step by step. As the senior's graduation approaches, a variety of questions about the future come rushing at the two of them, and they haven't even formally discussed any of them yet.

The moment the idea of ​​change arose, another weight of life began to give Jun Matsueda a headache. He turned his head to look at the other side, where the rain outside the window had thinned considerably, drifting erratically with the shape of the wind, and the gray sky had lost its magic of relaxing the mind.

Mochizuki Haruka, who was lying on the table, raised her head, blocking the boy's view. The girl blinked and handed over the black cat-shaped pillow that was under her arm.

"If you're feeling upset, it's better to take a nap."

The girl seemed to have become more understanding. Matsueda Jun hesitated for a moment before taking the pillow she offered.

"Thank you."

Tomatsu Yuka watched all this with a cold eye. Her relationship with Mochizuki Haruka was somewhat delicate at the moment, and she had no intention of stopping the girl from secretly wielding a hoe.

Jun Matsuoka's afternoon nap was not very peaceful, as the pattering rain kept lingering in his ears until the gloomy rain and wind finally ended when school was over in the afternoon.

However, the heavy clouds showed no signs of dissipating. After Xie Juewang offered him a ride, the boy walked back to his apartment alone.

Fortunately, it wasn't raining on the way. He took out his key, unlocked the door, and pushed it open. The first thing Matsueda Jun heard was the sound of stir-frying coming from the kitchen and a girl humming a song.

Jun Matsue put the umbrella aside, closed the door and changed his shoes. The sharp-eared girl heard the noise from the door and peeked out from the kitchen.

Yosei Kurusu waved the spatula in her hand, splashing a few drops of deep red sauce onto the ground, but the carefree smile on the girl's face remained unchanged.

"Pine Branch is back? It's gotten quite cold today, let's have pork stew rice tonight to warm us up~"

"Then I'll eat more." Jun Matsueda threw his schoolbag on the sofa and then sat down at the dining table.

Fortunately, 507 still allowed him to temporarily put aside the various thoughts in his mind and enjoy his dinner in peace.

At the dinner table, Yosuke Kurusu watched as Jun Matsueda scooped up a large spoonful of rice covered with pork and onions, soaked in broth, and put it in his mouth, chewing it vigorously.

"Songzhi has been looking tense lately; just eating won't help him relax."

The boy paused for a moment while chewing, then swallowed his food and looked up at the warm yellow light source on the ceiling.

"There's no way around it. Once you have something you want, all sorts of other ideas will immediately snowball."

The girl pondered for a while, spoon in her mouth.

"Then I think, if it brings more trouble than happiness..."

"Is it better to give up now?"

Chapter 391 Indelible

As night deepened, Jun Matsueda put his phone back on the bedside table and ended his call with Maki Yami.

The two chatted for more than ten minutes, just ordinary greetings before bed. The senior's mood was much calmer than during the day, and the girl should be able to get a good night's sleep tonight.

Jun Matsue got up, drew the curtains, took a sip of water, and went back to bed.

In the darkness of those few minutes before he closed his eyes and fell asleep, he recalled what the girl sleeping next door had said during dinner.

If the troubles outweigh the pleasures, then don't do it. This is a very simple principle.

However, pursuing most things in this world brings trouble in the process, and happiness only comes after obtaining them, which is the so-called "joy of success".

Therefore, he won't dwell on it; before the outcome is revealed, he just needs to keep moving forward steadfastly.

The next morning, Jun Matsue woke up in the sunlight that filled the room. He drew back the curtains, and the bright daylight shone on his face.

The boy stretched his body and yawned.

"Finally, the sun is shining..."

Stepping out of the bedroom, Kurusu Yosei saw a girl eating breakfast in the living room. She blinked and pointed to the kitchen.

"Songzhi got up later than usual today. Your sandwich is warming up in the pan."

He went into the kitchen to find his sandwich, and when he returned to the living room, the girl had already poured him some milk and looked like she was about to leave.

"Kurasu, so early today? Do you have work to do?"

Yosuke Kurusu nodded happily, "Hmm, we're shooting an advertisement today."

"An advertisement?" Jun Matsueda looked up, traces of milk still on his lips. "Are you really going to become famous?"

"It's just a small step~" The girl stuck out her tongue and made a victory sign.

"So if Matsueda isn't planning to give up, please keep up the good work—you're my number one fan, you know?"

Jun Matsue watched the girl close the apartment door, then looked at the sandwich in his hand and took a big bite.

"Thank you for your encouragement, Ms. Kurusu."

During the fourth period of the morning, physical education, the boys in their sports uniforms were panting on the track.

Matsueda Jun gazed ahead, slightly raising his head. The sky, washed clean by the typhoon, was exceptionally clear, displaying a precious, translucent blue that reminded him of the white sand beaches he had once seen in Hokkaido.

He raised his arm and wiped the fine sweat from his neck with his right hand, but to Mochizuki Haruka standing on the green field, the boy's movement looked like he was adjusting the scarf around his neck in winter.

She changed to a stretching exercise, and the girls were all warming up on the playground. Next, it would be their turn to go onto the track.

"Finally, we'll stretch in pairs, back to back!"

The female teacher's voice rang out, and Mochizuki Haruka turned her head to look at the girl beside her.

Tomatsu Yuka glanced at her, her face expressionless. Mochizuki Haruka walked behind her, and the two of them wrapped their arms around each other back to back.

She bent down, and because of her height, the girl behind her had her toes leave the ground and her body was uncontrollably pulled up. The girl's hands waved frantically in the air for a couple of moments before finally stabilizing.

Mochizuki Haruka turned her head to look at the boys who had run to the other side of the playground. Matsueda Jun slowed down a little because the girls from Class 3-4 were warming up there, including Yamami Maki.

"Is this how things end between you and Yamagami?" Her tone sounded dissatisfied.

Tomatsu Yuka was also looking at the person opposite her. "Do you want me to yell and scream at school and make a scene that everyone knows about, or do you want me to ambush her on the way home from school and tear her face apart?"

She straightened up and put the girl back on the ground. Mochizuki Haruka immediately bent down and lifted the guy behind her into the air.

Tomatsu Yuka let out a soft cry of alarm, attracting the attention of those around her.

"It's nothing, it's just that Mochizuki-san is stronger than I thought." She gave a evasive smile.

Mochizuki Haruka below chuckled, letting the girl on her back fall back to the ground. The two separated, watching together as the boy rushed out of the bend and approached them once more.

"I know you won't just give up like this." Mochizuki Haruka swung her arms one last time, preparing for the exercise.

"Don't make me sound like the villain; I'm the victim here."

After saying this, Tomatsu Yuka took the lead and walked towards the track after the boys reached the finish line.

After school today, Jun Matsue did not go straight home or meet with his senior. Instead, he walked through the crowd in the corridor toward the activity building.

Pushing open the classroom door that read "Light Music Club Unit 2!", one is greeted by the energetic chatter of the girls inside. Aya Miyamura sits in the middle chair, holding a metronome that is ticking away.

"Brother Chun is here!" The girl stretched out her right hand and waved vigorously.

Izumi Mizuki, who was talking to Koyuki, also looked up and pressed the metronome in the girl's arms.

"We need to start discussing the band plans for the new semester."

Jun Matsue nodded, picked up a chair, sat down by the drum set by the window, and listened to the girls' enthusiastic discussion.

"We need to perform more new songs, right? The bands at those variety shows all performed their own original songs. It feels weird if we keep covering their original songs, doesn't it?"

"Then we need to write more new songs. The song I sent you back then still doesn't have any satisfactory lyrics..." The minister waved his hand.

"Is writing songs that hard?" Aya tapped her chin with her finger, looking dazed.

"Didn't we have you try writing lyrics before?" Xiaoxing rolled her eyes at her. "What blue sky, white clouds, and stars? I thought you were writing a children's song!"

The girls chatted and laughed, while Jun Matsue hugged the back of his chair, the noise outside the window swirling around him—the cicadas chirping again after the typhoon.

"Doesn't Matsueda have any ideas?" Izumi Mizuki interrupted the girls and asked the boy sitting to the side.

Jun Matsueda shook his head. "You can discuss the schedule and performance plans yourselves."

But then the boy suddenly remembered something, hesitated for a moment, and glanced at the girls in front of him.